For some reason in my twisted past mindset of withholding and lack, I formed the mental relation of (beauty and pleasure) to (evil). Beauty as a representation of consumption and materialism. Pleasure as a representation of selfishness.
Through my environmental education, I learned that consumption is bad. We must never buy anything new because we vote with our dollar and we don’t want the baby whales to be harpooned. We must renounce all media and throw out (compost) all the cupcakes in the pantry because the rain forests are being destroyed.
We are never doing enough because there is always more to do. There is always more devastation.
Oh well, I can never enjoy a piece of chocolate cake again because all of the ingredients in it are killing the inner ecology of my colon, promoting slave labor, and is probably in some way connected to a baby cow being separated from its mama.
Shoot, I can never buy a new item of clothing because it feeds into the I NEED MORE STUFF mentality, is funding some sort of child prostitution business, and is pouring polluting dyes into the oceans.
So I shouldn’t ever stop and lay in the grass for a few hours in the middle of the day because I could be spending that time petitioning the USDA, planting trees, volunteering at a homeless kitchen, researching new biofuels…
I have learned that pleasurable human acts are wastes of time and are not feeding the good of society.
I have learned that wearing beautiful clothing and surrounding myself with beautiful things is focusing too much on material objects.
I am announcing that I call bullshit.
I call bullshit on this mindset.
Nature shows the answer to all of our problems in displays of beauty. Beauty is a little guidebook that big mama earth has given us. She catches our eye with the slender, juicy curve of a ripening tomato, sings to our soul with the chirps of crickets on long summer nights.
The larger more ostentatious beauty of a flower in bloom and the subtle understated (but powerful) beauty of the cycles of nature. Death and rebirth, decomposing to feed, taking in and breathing out.
There is an innate desire as a human animal to feel beautiful, and an innate desir for a human animal to feel pleasure. For to harmonize with nature is to live your life as a demonstration of beauty.